Jose came home the other night & he started to talk to me about my blog post that day [he read my blog! haha I felt so cool!] I had blogged about our baby lamb that day that we had gotten last week & I revealed her name, Grace. But he told me that I had missed the biggest part about Grace in that blog post. I honestly forgot what he was talking about until he reminded me & I felt so bad because you guys had to hear this amazing story. You see our Grace has a bigger story than you think. She was only born two weeks ago, but has already been such a ray of hope in our lives & after Jose reminded me of her story, I figured it deserved it’s own blog post.
Ok, so let’s back up. I told my friend Abby a few months ago that I wanted some sheep if her sheep ever had sheep. Is that how you say that? Well, a few of her sheep got pregnant this past spring & we told her that we would take some of the lambs when they were born. I was there for the ultrasounds & Abby always kept me in the loop through their pregnancies & we were so excited to welcome some lambs to White Cottage Farm once they were born. There were three sheep that we assumed could be pregnant so we waited to see what happened. We were thrilled when the first sheep had her lambs. It was twin boys! Then we found out the second sheep didn’t get pregnant successfully. So we still had one more to go. So we waited. & we waited. & we waited. After a few weeks after the other sheep had the twin boys went by we were wondering why this sheep wasn’t having her babies because they all got pregnant at the same time. The vet was called & we were told to wait. So we waited, & we waited, & we waited. Betty, the sheep who was still pregnant, was getting massive & we figured everyday she was ready to give birth. Then the vet was called again & Abby was told that poor Betty probably miscarried. It was devastating news. Even though they are farm animals, both Abby and I love & care for our farm animals & we were saddened for Betty & the loss. There was no hope for her & we knew there was nothing we could do so we went on with our life after that & Jose and I started prepping the farm for the twin boys.
But this story is called the miscarriage that didn’t happen right? Right. I was sitting at a wedding reception a few weeks after that & I was taking photos with some of the guests with my phone & my phone kept going off. I was going to ignore it because I didn’t want to be rude at the wedding, but I saw it was Abby so I decided to quick look at what she needed. The text read something like “Betty just had triplets!!” & my heart stopped. Wait, that couldn’t be possible. The other lambs were born at the beginning of April & it was mid June now & Betty just gave birth to Triplets… WHAT? I had so many questions. How did the vet miss three heartbeats in her? Why was she pregnant so long? How big were these babies? Were they ok? What did they look like? Needless to say I did some incognito texting at that wedding reception because I was so excited about the triplets.
I’m not going to compare my miscarriages with a sheep having a miscarriage. I’m not going to sit here and say that a lamb is like a baby. I’m not going to sit here and type that because a sheep had something happen with a pregnancy that a human could have the same thing happen as well. I am going to say that there is always hope. I am not comparing the pregnancies, but I am comparing the hope that connects the two. Having a newborn sheep has taught me a lot this past week. Bottle feeding her, having her follow me everywhere I go, & taking care of her like her mother would, but I think the biggest thing Grace has brought to our farm is hope. We all thought that Betty had lost her babies, we all thought that that was it & since the doctor said they were gone that they were gone. There was no room left for hope. That was that. But a few weeks later Abby walked into her barn & there were three healthy lambs laying under the sheep that as told she would not give birth. There was hope & we just didn’t cling to it. There is always hope & we must always cling to it.
It’s funny what the farm has taught me in this year of being here, but I think the biggest thing it has brought to me & Jose is hope. We have been through some dark times the past few years including miscarriages & something terrible that I have never shared with you guys. There is something about caring for animals, growing things from the dirt, renovating an old home, & caring for your land that truly brings hope to each day. I’m not going to lie that after six miscarriages most days I feel like there is no hope, but when I look at Grace I realize there is so much hope in this world.. God gives us new graces every morning & even in the darkest of times there is hope. If Jose and I are ever blessed to be pregnant again I will think of Grace & how we were told there is no hope for her & here she is living her best life on our farm… Friends, there is always hope. I hope that Grace gives you hope today no matter what situation you are in. Grace is a walking little miracle & I hope she spreads hope beyond our farm with her amazing story. Thank you for sharing in our joy of Grace & for loving her from a distance along with us. Be sure to follow me on Facebook & Instagram for an overload of Grace photos & videos. xx
You can read about how Grace made it to our farm [HERE]