Today I wanted to share with you a sneak peek of a big change in our entryway.. I’ll be back later to show you this full space when we get it completely decorated for Christmas, but for now just some changes, some finds, & some feels. So, as you have noticed by the blog and my posts on social media… Christmas decor has started around here. It’s in full force. The reason I start so early I have shared before [HERE] & in short it’s because I want to give inspiration before the masses start decorating. There is another reason. In short with that reason is the Holiday season is hard for me. It starts at Halloween when everyone is taking their children trick-or-treating I am reminded of our almost 5 year old in heaven who I don’t get to get a costume for & that’s a really rough on a mommas heart. So, Halloween night Jose and I put our tree up so that we don’t go into a dark place. & guess what? It works. Bringing in the holiday cheer a little early helps distract from the lonely feelings the holiday season seems to bring. So, since Halloween I’ve been working on our Christmas decor & it has been a lovely distraction from those thoughts of another holiday season without our 7 babies here. I feel like I need to share some of my healthy coping mechanisms in a blog post soon with you guys as I want to be more open with the hardships of our miscarriages and infertility, but the holidays do make me want to spoil Jose and I more as it’s the hardest time of the year for us. This week I lost something I thought I would never lose.. and that’s hope. I didn’t lose it forever or for a long period of time, but just a few moments where I really could ever imagine being a mom to a baby here on earth. I had a few bad days were I just couldn’t see past all of this infertility & miscarriage issues. I was in a dark space with no way out of those thoughts.
When all else fails to get me out of that dark space, that’s when Jose and I know it’s time to get out of the house for a little while… go on a date. Get out of our own heads. Have some fun. laugh a lot. Get inspired. & pray. So this past week when I was not feeling myself we went out on a date. We started at West Elm before we went to dinner & I found the more beautiful & coziest throw [HERE]. I mean, what comforts you on a cold rainy day more than a cozy throw? We made one more stop before our dinner date to Anthropologie which is one of our favorite “go-to on a sad day spots”. That’s where I encountered my dream pillow [HERE]. It was the perfect knotted wool lumbar pillow. I mean, I’ve never seen a pillow that was more beautiful and perfect a day in my life. We all know that pillows are my weakness, but as I walked towards the pillow I snatched it up and hugged it tight. It’s a massive pillow with amazing quality & I don’t even have to tell you how beautiful it is. Before we even left the store I knew where this cozy lumbar pillow was going to go in our front entryway and be the icing on the cake to all the big changes we have made there recently. & today I really wanted to share a sneak peek of those changes in the front entryway…
If you guys follow me on Instagram than you may have seen my stories this weekend where I was taking down this gallery wall in our front entryway. If you don’t remember that gallery wall, you can see it [HERE]. I know many of you loved the gallery wall in our front entryway & to be honest I did as well. It was one of the first areas of this home that we decorated & I loved all the pieces that made up the gallery wall. But I was really wanting to simplify this wall. The good news? We are going to use everything that made up the gallery wall in other ares of our house & I can’t wait to share that with you! Now you might be thinking that this doesn’t look to simplified, but it’s Christmas decor time so you know how that goes. But I promise this is more simplified! We basically took down the entire gallery wall & hung some salvaged corbels to create a large shelf that spans the staircase wall almost as long as the antique church pew. I will be sharing this space in more detail later when we get it all completely decorated for Christmas, but today I wanted to just share an update & the few finds that I got this week for our Christmas & winter decor.
What do you guys think of the beginning of our Christmas decor in the entryway? what do you think of my new finds? What do you think of the simplified change in the entryway so far? Promise I will be back with the full space soon & also more posts on how we deal with miscarriage & infertility because even though it’s sometimes hard to talk about, I don’t want anyone to think that they are alone. Thank you guys so much for always coming to the blog for inspiration & to follow whatever we may be up to in the moment.. it means the world to me. Thank you. Be sure to find me on Facebook & chat with me on Instagram for more behind the scenes. xx