I was taking a walk around the farm tonight after a very busy day where I was rushing around to be in all places at once. The walk was much needed & the sun made me stop in my tracks and realize that I deserved this. I had been telling myself all day the ways I was failing and scolding myself for my imperfections that were magnified throughout my busyness of the day. As I sat there breathing in the fresh air and soaking in the sun rays as I sat out by our sheep some wisdom came to me that I am not my imperfections or my mistakes… I’m Liz & I try my hardest every day & I deserve self care, self love, & self forgiveness. So I sat there and made the first promise I had made to myself in this new year… to be kinder to myself.
It’s so funny because I have been talking to so many of you on Instagram about how we are all busy cleaning our homes, purging items we don’t need, throwing away things that are weighing us down… we forget about cleaning out our minds, purging what is weighing us down mentally, & throwing away the horrible things we think about ourselves & say to ourselves daily. We aren’t all the same, but I know I’m not the only one who is truly cruel to myself sometimes. I view myself as a pretty kind person who tries to go out of their way to build others up & encourage those around me, but I will turn around quickly and point out to myself a list of things I did wrong that day & remind myself of that one conversation a few months ago that I said the wrong thing and remind myself that I messed up that conversation so that person probably thinks I’m weird now. Yah, the same person trying her hardest to spread light to others is encouraging cruel conversations with myself. It was the wind and sunshine that brought me back to reality. I deserve the encouragement that I give others, I deserve the compliments that I give out freely to everyone else, & I deserve that self-care & that self-love I preach so often about to my loved ones. After that insightful moment out on the farm today with the sheep and Winnie I came back in & in between the cloudy day the sun was pouring through all the windows in our house & it was the reminder I needed to slow down and soak it all in. It was the reminder as well to sit down and share this reminder with you guys… I had chatted before that I wasn’t picking a “word of the year” this year or sharing any new years resolutions, but maybe this is it for me… & it should be for you too… Start fresh this year & be kind to yourself.
I struggle with my infertility, my miscarriages, my anxiety, my weight gain this year, my procrasination… I could go on, but I am none of those things. I am not the negative things in my life… I am so much more! & so are you. Let’s make 2019 a year of being kinder to others, giving more grace to others, checking in on others more, forgiving others often, focusing on others positive attributes, encouraging others when they are down, & cheering on everyone who is doing well… & then turn that all around & do the same things FOR YOURSELF! Let’s make that our new years resolution… I’m going to. 2019 is about self care. It doesn’t have to be spa days or buying yourself expensive things. It can be taking time to meditate, read a book, eat well, exercise, relax, & taking time to do things that you love & that fill your cup so that you can pour out for others. I learned in my 30th year in 2018 that I can’t be there fully for others if I’m not fully there for myself. I hope my lesson from 2018 can make my 2019 & yours the year we are kinder to others & ourselves. I love you guys and I hope that my little bit of wisdom that I got on my walk today helps you in some way. Love you all & thank you for stopping by the blog every day and fill my cup up! xx