I sit here with my coffee in hand on New Years Day & have a feeling of being overwhelmed and lazy all at the same time. I’m overwhelmed by all the possibilities the new year holds, all the things I want to accomplish, & everything that I want to get started in this new year. It’s all so overwhelming. So overwhelming that I just sit here because I don’t know where to get started. Actually this is really how I feel everyday. A glimpse into Liz’s mind: I have so many ideas, so many things I want to do, oh look… a squirrel, I wonder what everyone is doing on Instagram, I really want to start some new things today, oh I wonder if I should start this first, oh crap it’s bed time. Nothing got done. Having a creative mind & struggling with anxiety & depression can be debilitating & can really drain the motivation, drive, & luster right out of me. That’s why for 2018 my word of the year is something that I want to wake up with each morning & keep throughout my day every single day….
pur·poseˈpərpəs/nounthe reason for which something is done or created or for which something exists.“the purpose of the meeting is to appoint a trustee”
Purpose. I feel like I know my purpose here on earth & I’m so happy & content with what I do & who I am. I love being the creative person that I am, I love being a shop owner, a blogger, a wife, a friend, & so much more. I’m not talking about that kind of purpose. I’m talking about the daily purpose. My daily tasks, things I need to accomplish, things like that. I want to strive to wake up everyday with purpose no matter what is going on in our lives at the moment. I want to live life with purpose in every moment. I want to work with a purpose. I want to waist less time like I have a purpose. I want to be more intentional like I have a purpose. I want to have a clear vision for my work & the day like I have a purpose. You guys know that we are in the middle of this fertility journey & somedays it’s hard to get out of bed feeling defeated from that & thinking about all the loss & our babies that are in heaven. It can all be so heavy & completely drain the purpose right out of me. I want to work on ending that. Ending those purpose draining thoughts & feelings. I want to strive to wake up with a purpose every single morning even if it’s the littlest thing like cleaning a toilet[joking]. I want to feel needed, accomplished, & proud that I fulfilled that purpose for that day. & even on days where it’s not focused on my work & whether it’s to simply be a light in the world, to be a friend, to be a good listener, to donate time, to offer time to help someone, to do any selfless act. I want to look at that with different eyes this year… not like I waisted time or that I now have to play catch up. I want to look at that as my purpose for that day & that is where God wanted me. I want to try harder to plan my purpose for the days and weeks ahead, I want to be more intentional with that days purpose. I tend to be the person that never plans anything in advance. I kind of fly by the seat of my pants & I think that is one of my problems with struggling for my purpose. You see, when you work from home & own a shop like I do… things can get blurry when you don’t have a deadline & you work for yourself. Very blurry. When you wake up without a purpose for that day a lot of time can be waisted & a lot of regret can come out of that for me. So with a clear schedule, more intention, & less time waisted I think that’s where I will find more purpose for my daily life & I think that is where I will find more joy for waking up each day.
Sleep schedules, calendars, lists, planning, & purpose… they all go together & in 2018 I want to combine all of that to live my life with more purpose. Waist less time getting my work done so there can be more time for family & friends, self love, & even more purpose in my life. I hope this post makes sense & hopefully inspires you in some small way if you are struggling with purposeful living. 2018 is my year for focusing, slowing down, living with intention, & truly growing in purpose daily. Thank you guys for being a HUGE part of 2017 with me & for making this blog a huge part of my purpose. I honestly don’t know what I would do without my blog. It brings me so much joy & gives me so much purpose in this life of mine… so thank you for making that possibly by visiting daily, cheering us on, & for sharing in my passions with me. THANK YOU!!! What is your word of the year? Let me know in the comments below, find me on Facebook, & chat with me on Instagram. xx