Where do I even begin. How do I tell the woman who made me a mom thank you? A simple thank you doesn’t even scratch the surface of how I feel. No, it’s more of a gut wrenching gratitude that almost takes all the breath from my lungs when I think of the magnitude of the decision you made that changed my whole life forever. No, a simple thank you would never do. You made a painful, heart stopping, soul crushing, selfless decision to give us the gift of life to call our own. You made us parents. You made me a mom. Before I met you I looked at the world differently, I looked at adoption differently, I looked at family differently. You changed me in so many ways. You will never ever ever know how much you changed me, my life, & my entire world, but know that there is a special spot in my heart for you and there always will be. Know you are thought of every single day in our household & that you are prayed for every time we bow our heads. Before you, my world was smaller & less vibrant, my days were planned & quiet, my nights were long & restful, & I lived for myself. You gave me the gift that brought color into every single moment of my day, you gave me the gift of unexpected schedules & noisy hours, & you gave me the gift of short nights & the need for naps… & it’s all I’ve ever wanted in my entire life. You made me a mom. You didn’t have to choose adoption for Cope. You are strong, you are smart, you are capable. You are his birth mom & always will be. You are also the most selfless person I’ve ever met & chose adoption for Cope because you wanted him to have a mom and a dad… & you chose us. You made us parents. You made me a mom. How do we say thank you? We simply can’t just say thank you. We will say thank you by raising Cope to be the best young man you will ever meet. We will thank you by loving Cope & raising him to love the Lord. We will thank you by loving you & cherishing our relationship. & finally we will thank you by always telling Cope what an amazing woman you are & telling him the selfless loving decision you made to make him our son. & by doing that you made me a mom. The minute you came to our house & asked us to be Cope’s parents I loved you. It was instant… I cared for you deeply & I never knew I could love a perfectly good stranger the way I loved you. The more I learned about you at each doctors appointment and meet-up with you my respect for you grew & you made me want to be the best mom I could ever be. Five short weeks later after I met you I watched as you labored for hours in the hospital bringing our son into the world. I felt pangs of guilt & wanting to take the pain away from you, but mostly I just felt proud. Proud to know you, proud to be connected with you, & most of all proud to tell Cope one day that his birth mom truly loves him & is one of the strongest women I have ever met. After hours of laboring I watched as you pushed our son into the world & we all cried. He was beautiful. Cope made us both moms that day. Society tells us to call you a birth mom & me an adoptive mom.. or just mom. But I will forever think of us as a village of moms for Cope. How lucky is he that his birth mom and his mom are connected in such a loving way and will both be a part of his life since the moment he came into the world. I can’t wait to tell him about the day he came into the world and that we were both there together loving on him & caring for him since day one. He truly has a special story already. Thank you for changing our life story so dramatically with the decision to make us Cope’s parents. You made our outlook on life so much brighter. You made me look at the world with hope and opportunity. You gave me drive that I never thought I would have. After losing 9 babies to miscarriage & going through some of the darkest days I could have ever imagined, you brought the light into my life. You made me look at adoption with more love & respect than I could have ever imagined. You made me look at family as those who come into your lives and who have sacrificed for you and will always be by your side. Family isn’t always blood, it’s love. It’s deep unconditional love that ties us together & made us family. I know adoption looks very different on your end. I know it’s not all vibrant, light, & hope. I know there is anger, I know there is grief, I know there is pain, & I know there are feelings that I can’t even fathom. I know since the day you found out that you were carrying Cope they have been some of the hardest days of your life, but I hope you know that we want to do everything in our power to make this adoption process easier on you. I hope that knowing that you gave us the best gift we could ever receive besides each other & our marriage, makes it a tiny bit easier & a tiny bit brighter for you on those dark days. We are always here for you. We will always love you. & we will forever be grateful for you & the son you gave us. You made us parents. You made me a mom.
Thank you for choosing us & thank you for loving us & most of all thank you for loving Cope. We all love you to the moon and back. xx