Grace. It seems to be the subject on everyones minds these days. Whenever I’m at our shop, The Found Cottage, its all everyone talks to me about & it truly makes me so happy that so many people love her like we do. She came into our lives unexpectedly & has been an unexpected joy ever since. We’ve had her now for a little over a month & yet it seems like she’s been in our life forever. She is a part of our morning routine, daily grind, & nightly ritual. She’s our Grace.
Honestly I felt a little strange sharing this, but Grace has truly saved me in a way. You see with our infertility journey comes some pretty low lows. I refer to it as my “dark days” when I talk about it with Jose & he understands when I say that I’m just not in a good place. This year I’ve been having more of those days. I can’t pinpoint what brings them on, but I also can’t pinpoint what brings me out of them. I wish I could, but they come & go with no warning and no solution. When I’m having a dark day I don’t get excited about much, I don’t feel like myself, I can’t seem to complete a task, & at the drop of a hat I feel like I could cry. It’s honestly scary to feel this way & I pray that these dark days are just part of this season of my life right now as we travel through this time of infertility and miscarriages.
When we got Grace I just assumed we were getting a sheep and that was that. She was a sheep who just happened to need a bottle.. nothing more. If you haven’t read what a miracle Grace was [HERE] you might not know that Grace was actually not supposed to be here according to doctors. Doctors had told us that her mom had miscarried, but a month later out popped Grace & two other siblings. A straight up miracle people. Well, when we picked up Grace after she was rejected by her mother I was heading home from the farm she came from & I was like ok, I just have a sheep in the back seat & when we get to our farm I’m going to put this sheep in the barn & that’s that. We will have a sheep in our barn that I have to feed a bottle to once in a while. Wrong. So wrong. The whole way home in my Jeep that day Grace cried in her little cardboard box, so to calm her down I tried feeding her a bottle as I drove down the highway [don’t worry I was being safe] I snapped into reality and I was like what am I doing… this is a sheep in my backseat that I’m trying to feed a bottle to as I drive. Who am I?! What did I get myself into? When we got home I tried putting her in the barn until Jose arrived home… nope. She was glued to my side. From that point on I was her person. Her momma. Her guardian. Her shepherd. Her family. I didn’t quite know the extent of it, but as soon as I walk she is right behind me. When she loses sight of me she cries. When she hears my voice when she’s in the barn she cries. She’s not content with anyone but me. She is my shadow. She truly thinks that we are one.
That brings me to why I’m sharing this today, why I felt weird sharing this post, & why I think farming has helped me on my infertility journey. When we got Grace I was in a dark spot. I’m not saying I’m out of that or that things have magically turned around, but Grace gave our farm a beautiful purpose & new life. Grace gives me an exciting reason to wake up super early & a fun way to end my day in the barn. Grace depends on me for eating & Grace truly gets excited when she sees me. Grace needs us & that has truly brightened some of my darkest days. I know Grace has kind of taken over my life, my blog, my Instagram, & my Facebook, but theres a reason for that. I may have thought she was just a sheep coming to live on our farm, she may add craziness to our already crazy schedule, & she may be the naughtiest little sheep I ever did see, but Grace has saved me in a way & Grace has truly been a gift from God on this infertility journey we are on. I hope Grace brings joy to your day as well & has brightened your days like she has mine. Thank you guys so much for being a part of every step of our journey from farming, to home decor, to DIY, to our fertility struggles. I know this is only the beginning of our Farming journey and there are so many more exciting things to come. Thank you!
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