I’m not here today with pretty styled photos or home decor, but I’m here to share with you today a kind gesture & a lovely gift I received from good samaritans in remembrance of our 6 angel babies. If you have read any of our journey you know that I am a mom to 6 precious babies that are in heaven & that I am one of those 1 in 4 women that has PCOS. I am also one of those women who that doesn’t dwell on my miscarriages. Not that it is bad to dwell, but I’m just being honest with you about how I feel because I always want to be honest about our journey. I am so occupied with our life & loving the moment that I do not have days where I sit around the house depressed that our babies are in heaven. I know that this is God’s plan, I know that God has great plans for our life right now & in the future, I know that I have nothing to worry about, & I know that God is in control. I love this season of our lives right now. Just the two of us working on our dreams & really enjoying these days of just us two because we know they are numbered. Sometimes I feel like the minority on this journey a. because of how many losses we have had & b. because of the way I feel about my losses & how I handle them. I get scared to share on here how I feel because I don’t want anyone to mistake my peace & understanding about our losses for not caring about our babies, but I also think it’s nice to see how others deal with similar journeys. I have peace, I have understanding, I have a true love for our life right now, & a deep thankfulness for this journey God has given us, but as a human I have moments where I miss those babies that I held in me for a short time.
When I was at the Farmgirl Flea the other day I was running around like a crazy person the whole day [I’ll be blogging more about the flea soon] & in the middle of the day a lovely friend who I went to school [she has a shop (here)] with came up to me with a gift bag. I had no idea what was inside, but was surprised & she told me to open it when I got home. When I finally got to open the gift I saw a lovely quilt & was thinking that was what it was.. but it was so much more.
The quilt inside the gift bag was made by her & another friend. & it wasn’t just any quilt, it was a remembrance quilt to remember our angel babies with. The quilt is to keep in any spot that I wish & to pull out whenever I have a moment that I want to hold our babies I can hold the quilt & remember them. I can hold the quilt & remember that God is holding our babies, remember that they are happy, I can remember that I am a mom to 6 beautiful children, I can remember the happy moments I had while they were here on earth, I can remember the strength I have gained from loss, I can remember that God is in control, I can remember that there are amazing people with us on this journey, I can remember that one day I will be able to hold those babies of mine that we loss too soon.
This was such a thoughtful gift. It told me that people are thinking of us on our journey. People care. Not everyone knows what to say. I have had 6 losses & I still do not know what to say to people who experience any kind of loss, but this gesture needed no words. This gift said it all. The quilt told me that people cared about our journey, they cared about my healing, they cared about our loss, & most of all they cared about my hurting momma heart that longed to hold those babies of mine.
This is such a kind gesture & I will never forget it. This quilt will be with me on my entire journey through loss, motherhood, & beyond. I wanted to share this because it was so kind & also as an idea for those of you who do not know what to get those in your life who are dealing with miscarriage, still birth, or infant loss. I know it’s so hard to know what to do in these situations, but this beautiful quilt really just showed so much more than words could ever say & I’m forever grateful for kind souls. Thank you guys for stopping by my blog today, it means so much to me. & thank you for those who are on this journey with us we are so grateful for the kind words, prayers, & just the thoughts. You are all amazing. xx
Read more about our miscarriage & fertility journey [here].